My brother got me thinking on this, so I felt like I had to write it. Towards the end of `06 and all of `07 have not been good for me. Socially, educationally, and mentally. With the lost of my sister to Leukemia (cancer) I had a lot to think about during the summer. And the start of highschool was okay yet I am bothered by my peers. With all thats happened to me I still want to find happiness. On the plus side my family and I have regain our relationships incredibly fast and we are just lucky to have one another and we have caught back up to our lives. Having a few close friends have held me together and kept me sane yet I've learned and grown much closer to them at the same time, like Katelyn my best friend , and Holly and Nesmarie even though I've never even met them. Although much has gone wrong, I'm ready to make it right. With a new found respect and a chance to change I'm going to make `08 a great year. I know my sister is slowly helping me to improve my lifestyle, and with dignity and respect I'll find the right group of people that will accept me and treat me the way I want to be treated, I also now find the responsibilities of school a lot more important (not that I was ignorant) and can begin to move on. This year might have not been all that I expected, but it has taught me so much about myself, and the world. I'm ready to prove them wrong, I'm ready to stand for myself, I'm ready to take action and be in charge of my life. I'm ready `08.

With a smile on their face
and a strong gesture to remind himself what lies ahead
they walk along the paths to see what's in store
many told him it wasn't going to be easy
many told him it was going to be fun
he knew he couldn't rely on their comments though
he told himself he wouldn't change
he told himself he wouldn't put himself down
or give up or give in
although he saw many following the same path
he felt a sense of loneliness with those moments that really mattered



~


the battle is fierce
the change has gone upon them all
including him
the rampage and violence
the eerie and elastic
it was so hard to stand
which left him at the bottom
and kicked out of the path....

but now he stands up
he remembered the first day of preparation
he remembered what was good and bad
he wasn't expecting this
but now he knows
he collects all that is good
and walks back in the path
never to be left out again....

This weekend was exponentially nice. My day's weren't to thrilling but my nights had made up for them. Saturday night I had gone to go eating with my family and a few relatives, then we had gone to a local mall to buy a dress for my cousin which has a dance coming up very soon. Today I had gone Van's Family and Friends Sale. I had known someone that worked at Vans and so I splurged more than the usual and I'm pretty satisfied with my purchase since we saved a lot more than we thought. I then went to go eat at a retro sushi bar, which was very satifying. I had then gone to a church I had never gone to before, and frankly, it was a really good experience and I'm going to go again. We then headed home and got some food. I'm satisfied and I really don't want to go back to school. I'm glad that the winter break is coming soon though.



I would never get my hopes up, I just know how to reach for the stars.

Well it's a friday, I sorta do feel good currently. Found out my cousin won't be hanging out with me all day so my younger cousin and I have to hang out for awhile. You probably won't get it so I'll start from the beginning. I was suppose to go to a whole bunch of warehouse sales this weekend with my bro. My cousin decides to call last minute saying she wants me to hang with her cause she's bored so she wants me to sleep over (currently typing this @ her house...thats why there isn't an image). Her brother calls saying we won't be able to do as we planned. We were going to go up to Laguna Beach with our parents since they work up there. Find a dress for my cousin since a formal dance is coming up, and then go catch a movie. Well one of our trio (me,my younger cousin, and my older cousin) has work tomorrow (you might have guessed the older one). So our day will be shorten, but I guess that means I could get home a little earlier and spend my saturday night at home, which is a plus. And anyways, I got Sunday to go to the warehouse sales (good thing they're all weekend long) so I'm good. I'm feeling content & calm at the moment and just celebrating the time with my cousin that I have right now.


Cringe above the others with a grin, they may find you irresistible.   

So here in SoCal we are in for some good rain tomorrow. But I haven't seen any rain overnight! Its okay though, I'm looking forward to nice weather (in me opinion). I'm planning to have a very busy weekend, lots and lots of warehouse sales and hanging with my cousin in Laguna Hills. The beach is suppose to have knarly waves at the beach throughout the weekend so I'll try to get there too. The holidays always make me feel great. It also keeps me busy and gives me things to do so it's good. I'm feeling quite cheerful at the moment, and very relaxed.





Live is so hazardous, sometimes it makes you want to do bad things, but if you read the warning label, and stop yourself from doing so, I think you can do well.

so leik... i'm starting new livejournal, the old one will still be there but i really wanted to open a new chapter in my blogging life.